So! This would be my very first blogg ever! I mean where would I find time in a busy life to do this, but I need to find an out in life every now and then. I lost my mom a few years back and you know the saying that the whole getting on with your life is suppose to get easier as time passes??? Well yeah - sooo not true in my case. For some odd reason life is only getting harder and harder. I try not to let it get to me but sometimes its sooo hard. My family (mothers side) has already accepted it and moved on (for the most part), my stepdad and little brother does not talk about her and act like it is what it is, and my husband --- well lets just say he never really cared to begin with.
I was never close to my mom, although looking back now I wish I were of course. Funny how that always happens. I was the rebelious child and did what I wanted and was always against her and everyone else... Looking back I guess you can say I felt like she was against me but whatever. I stayed locked up in my room all the time and the moment I was able to leave... I left. Now I wished I would've stayed.
All I want now- like this moment in time- this precise second- is to find away to be "OK" with it all... I am only 25 and I need to find a way.
